who said i cant wear converse with my dress?

cleaning through my inspirational folders...

cantilevered steps brad wasnt impressed with

i want a library like this so i can make my own cave!

hi beautiful

this would have been really sweet for the tree group in studio 5...

ok thats all... its time to sleep. ann arbor tomorrow for some good times with the architecture boys

-j

truths and lies

truths:

i cannot spell definately definitley definatley definitely to save my life....
i could stay up all night downloading fonts, OBSESSION
i have a thing for this guy that lives approximately 2300 miles away from me
(just short of an entire continent)
i miss my blackberry, but this whole razzle thing is ok for now
im excited for champagne on new years... i love champagne so much

lies:

i totally know what my plan is for next week
i totally know what my plan is for next month
i totally know what my plan is for next year
i dont want to move to san francisco

If one more family member asks how derek is and how things are with derek, Im gonna scream

And when I look behind on all my younger times ill have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong....

J.mayer

Dear static,
Bite me!!!!
(But plz don't cuz you'll prolly make me more staticky)

final night....

i am a kickass designer....

i
can
do
this
i
can
do
this
i
can
do
this

in the words of kate nash...

birds can fly so high
or they can shit on your head
ya they can almost fly into your eye
and make you feel real scared
but when you look at them
and you see that they're
beautiful
thats how i feel about you

your mom is a hexagon....

exploring the hexagonal shape that is part of my ASID project concept...

pretty

shazammm check out those lights

i like dis bench

hahahahaha YAY hexyshoes

steelcase's mediascape line.... PERFECTION

no seriously, i want one for my apartment!

i love my artistic friends :)

here are a few links to some AWESOME art that you can buy
my friends are so artistic and wonderful, i just had to acknowledge their greatness!

(also christmas is coming up and i would like you all to buy me lots of this stuff duh hahaha)

Clay by Megan Akiyama
awesome clay vases, platters, bowls, etc.... SO pretty!

Paintings by Ai Kawashima
cutest paintings EVER... i love them. i want like all of them.







Paintings by Anna Ball
these paintings are beautiful, inspirational, love love love them.








iTunes--Country--New and Noteworthy-- Kari Lynch "One Happy Love Song" EP
buy this album... it is amazing. i promise you... this girl can singgg. and i know of a few of you that will just be in love with her lyrics. she is also recording a full album with a full band.... so stay tuned :)








Ok thats all, just wanted to brag about all the cool people ive encountered in my life... support them and the arts please :)

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings 

just keep swimming

when this is all over im gonna:

-sleep a lot
-get myself to the gym... oh boy yes i am...
-start eating normal food as opposed to thinking energy drinks and coffee are their own food group (yes my stomach wants me dead lately)
-pick up my guitar for more than one strum
-actually COOK a meal, something i havent done in like months. and no, mac n cheese for owen doesn't count as a meal haha
-sit in bed and stare at the wall just because i have time to kill
-oh ya, im gonna actually get to see all my friends that hate me right now for not having a life (you all know who you are and you all should know how sad i feel without you in my life!)
-i guess i should start thinking about job hunting and what i want to do with my life


ps what am i to do for new years? i generally have a bowl game to be at, but this year (and last year) is a little different... ughhh

happy turkey day

a few lyrics off the new john mayer album... hitting a little too close to home hah...

just when i had you off my head
your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
you say you wanna try again
but I've tried everything but giving in


why you wanna break my heart again
why am i gonna let you try

moses/procrastination photo shoot

i forgot that seeing my pup was gonna be a distracting homework environment! woopsie!

10 min til turkey day! NOM NOM NOM!

ps

ps i met lloyd carr... WHAT UPPP!?!

happy monday

ill stand
with arms high and heart abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all
ill stand
my soul lord to you surrendered
all i have is yours


in class this morning, wishing i was back in bed. but i only have until tomorrow at 6pm!
and i have so much to do between now and then:

• pack for the cabin
• get stuff for my mentor child visit tomorrow
• make a list and gather all the homework i need to do this weekend
• clean the apartment (ugh)
• get studio 5 stuff done and ready for meeting tomorrow
• have SOMETHING to show for portfolio class... AHHH!!

i also just found out we still have graphics studio on wednesday.

guess who will be 4 hours away from room 423?

...yes that would be me...

i mean cmon who holds classes the day BEFORE thanksgiving!? some people

have to travel ya know!!!! annoying...

ok back to making this dumb brochure about a non-existent health center. haha

-j

Ann arbor is like my emerald city... I enter the city limits and all my problems seem to disappear

i LOVEEEEE this...

when will you realize, vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 




mmmm love me some billy joel... now i can focus on homework :)

is it friday yet? oh wait its not even monday yet....

ok so.... for starters lets not talk about saturday. ill just get all riled up and nothing good comes of that right? the wolverines have one more chance this season to make me happy and it doesnt look great. but i am still aching to be in that stadium right now. its bittersweet. osu game is something we always look forward to, but it also is the end of the season... i have to put up with dumb basketball season (please shoot me now)
ewww and all the march madness brackets will come out and everyone will go insane and facebook will be cluttered with them... i just threw up in my mouth a little.

i also think i made stupid decisions this weekend... i am an idiot. thats all there is to it

and finally, i can't even elaborate on any of this right now because i need to go write a paper on collision: a documentary i practically slept through thanks to all the nyquil i took last week. atheism vs christianity is exactly what i feel like writing about right now... bleh

goodnight

blame it on the n-n-ny-ny-ny-NYQUIL

this may or may not be written under the influence of the crazy behind the counter nyquil
(you know the one that has psuedophedrine) it also has doxylamine succinate which it calls
an antihistamine/HYPNOTIC... HAHAHAH my nyquil has hypnotic in it.

anyways ive been in bed 99% of the week. and i never thought id say it, but im getting sick
of sitting here in my bed and staying in every night.

but TOMORROW... michigan takes on the badgers. badgers are stupid, and wolverines eat them... as a snack. NOM NOM NOM! anyways, it could be a good game. im really hoping for the best. looks like dRob is starting. hopefully thats a good thing? dont tell anyone but im secretly counting down the days til next season. we need a fresh start. and if the forcier transferring rumors are true... well, lets not go there tonight.

oh also... i hate team projects. thats about it.

buenas noches

happy two dozen brad

happy two dozenth birthday to my brother and partner in crime for the past twenty two years of mine

back to reality

procrastinator: someone who postpones work (especially out of laziness or habitual carelessness) 
yep that sounds just about right. dont get me started on how much hw i have to do between today and tomorrow. its disgusting. yet im still making it to the gym tonight?

this weekend was a bust....

pros:
got to hang with brother bear (always a good time)
introduced lauren to michigan football, or better yet, college football haha
got to see the pontiac boys
and tackled pugg at 3am which in itself makes the weekend excellent
cherry pie. oh yes.

cons:
we lost... miserably
we aren't going to a bowl game
our offense actually looked good for once but it was wasted on that game
i didnt get to see this one guy i wanted to see
(which i am starting to believe is absolutley ridiculous)
also, i was forced to watch planet earth deep dive and encounter the vampire squid from hell
(brrrr nightmares)

but whatever. the weekend is over.
please tell me this season is just growing pains? i cant take this much heartbreak in one fall...

back to class!

fail

ok fine ill be happy

i like this...

sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. you have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. what is meant to be will end up good and what is not won't. relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. at times, people need to fight for you. if they don't, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give to you. hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something for real. always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

happy tuesday

truths:
-i woke up with a jar of peanut butter and spoon on my bedside table this morning haha
-i am breaking the rules and listening to a christmas song right now
-i am going to school in my pjs today

lies:
-i am totally prepared for my studio 5 meeting
-i am totally prepared for portfolio class
-i did not text him last night

boo monday :(

sometimes tears say all there is to say
sometime your first scars wont ever fade away
tried to break my heart
well it's broke
tried to hang me high
well i'm choked
wanted rain on me
well i'm soaked
soaked to the skin

...it's the end where I begin

I feel like michigan is the boyfriend that screws up over and over again and I'm the girlfriend that keeps giving chances.... Omg I'm that girl... Ugh

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you learn to appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." 

— Marilyn Monroe

cleaning

finally cleaning the apartment and realizing i have WAY too many....

bikinis
michigan tees
michigan hoodies
duffle bags
usb cords?!
hair products
mismatched socks
dirty dishes

ok some of those arent bad... hah

portfolio is the bane of my existence

"if you don't know just how you feel,
don't say those sweet things that you know i'd wanna hear
and if you don't know, just what to think
then put your thoughts away and keep them out of reach
haley don't hurt me if you don't know
i could have moved on long time ago"


mmmmm love me some needtobreathe. they will be at the intersection nov 2
and since i have that night off already... i just might go?


my portfolio is finally coming together ahh. i promise i will post some examples of it
sometime soon. i see people are checking out my carbonmade site, embarassing
that site needs to be updated like WHOA!


its gonna be weird not making a trip out to ann arbor this weekend... i dont know what i will do with the extra 4 hours of time that is usually taken up by the drive there and back.


oh wait... more homework. senioritis anyone? 


also, where can i find the book titled How To Be The Most Extraordinary Designer Ever: For Dummies.... does it even exist? blah...


j

to all you who tried to warn me and tried to tell me to be careful and guard my heart...

i'm really sorry i didn't listen to you

back to square one

and i just wasted almost two weeks of my life...

im in class early...

i think i was just overly excited for OT at lunch today because im in class 30 minutes early!

and its a class that people dont even show up to until like 9:30? 

its ok, i needed some chill time

im listening to kari lynch's ep that i finally bought

GREAT concert last night

except for those two weird blondes at the end that people claim are sisters

i think they are 

LOVERS

haha... ok im gonna go be productive

hi tuesday...

hi my name is jessica rieth smith

im going to be an interior designer AND a graphic designer


.... that is just too exciting providing i get a job

i'm just a little bit caught in the middle
life is a maze and
love is a riddle

jack talk thai reallllll good

found a new interest.... its called thai food
i used to hate it
but tonight i fell in love with tom yum soup with tofu
and tofu pad prik

haha... prik... hahahahaha its so funny right?

now im plowing through this ASID competition floor plan
trying to fit 2790 square feet of required space into a 3390 square feet of existing space
for all you mathematicians out there, that leaves me approximately
600 square feet for hallways and structure (walls are 6" thick)... it sounds like a LOT of space but its not

someone please shoot me now

Time for some football..... Vamos azul!

I'd like to think the best of me is still hiding up my sleeve...

its almost the weekend!

mood: contemplative
music: ice- lights
(NERD ALERT)

headed home tomorrow to see the fam
and for the delaware state game woot woot

this week went by fast, but im now so unbelievably confused
that its not even funny

just trying not to get my hopes up... woops too late

in other news, kendall is welcoming me with arms wide open
as i tack on two more semesters, giving me a minor in graphic design
im pretty stoked and pissed about it all at the same time.
still isnt written in stone. and it wont be until i show up for the first day of class... haha

ok off to kims for some hw and to watch the proposal :)

wednesday... EARLY

my life's roller coaster is going too fast and giving me whiplash...


hi my name is jessica and im
confused
tired
overwhelmed
and just generally wanting to stay in bed today

oh did i mention i might sign up for another 2 semesters of school thanks to my epiphany of minoring in graphic design... whats my deal?!

it doesnt even matter what i do, im unhappy in this city.

im going to leave grand rapids so far behind that i couldnt look back even if i wanted to.

its monday again...

class starts in 5 minutes
i didnt write my paper for next class, well i started it, but its not done ugh
some "person" FORCED me to stay on the phone til like 1:30am

tryin to keep my chin up and think about things to look forward to this week
...
...
nothing comes to mind
except for friday when i get to go home

2 min

time for class

Flat tires are the cheese to my macaroni...

Dear michigan defense,
Please play like you
WANT
THIS
Thank you,
J

Headed to visit brother bear :)

Just realized I've been skipping past john mayer songs lately... I'm not happy about it...

week one

longest week of my life hands down
yes, a week ago today, things were normal
one little mishap can change it all.... ridiculous
keep thinking ill just wake up and this will all be a nightmare...

its so much easier to be mad at him

headed over to kims for some pumpkinness and scary movies

ive got it covered with cans of food
filtered water and pictures of you
im not coming out until
this
is
all
over

is it the weekend yet?

great night, great friends

our new found friend, mr ran ortner, won the $250,000 prize tonight for the first annual artprize!

his work, open water, is an INCREDIBLE painting. congrats to him. ran is a really down to earth guy, so im super happy for him. roadtrip to nyc with the girls to visit him soon? yes please!

found a new little hole in the wall bar uptown gr

rocky's

there was a band there. real chill. loved it.

class tomorrow :(

and sleep now :(

(which as we know means sitting in bed with a tissue box and waiting for my 7am alarm to go off)

night

I'm a sucker for musicians... Ughhhh

Not falling asleep until 345am then waking up at 7am...

so
much
FUN!

"I love you, but I don't like you"
-owen, the 3-year old I nanny

why are nights the hardest.... i was doing just fine today...

:(

a blog about blogs?

epiphany.... working cures all. i had no time to think about things at work.

it was fantabulous.

on another note, im wishing this blogger thing did that one thing where

it asks your song of the moment.

ya know, like livejournal. ok dont look mine up, that'd be embarassing.

but ok i just looked at it.

it asks like your song of the moment, your location at the moment, your mood at the moment.

thank you blog

for caring all these things about me right?!

location: leaning on my bed, wearing my lady gaga wig (ok it didnt ask what i was wearing)

mood: surprisingly better than last night

song: some good girl rock like liz phair or paramore

ok that was dumb. but everyone has thier embarassing diaries or blogs somewhere.

ex: my moms diary from when she was younger (they didnt have blogs) always used to say what she ate for dinner... HAHAHAH..... MOM THE MEATLOAFFFFFF!!!!!

i did happen to find a great quote in one of my last live journal entries that applies to my life currently:

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing could hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. . .you give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a should-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love"

BEAUTIFUL quote... i dunno what its from.

omg i totally dropped my cell number and dorm room address... someone couldve stalked me and killed me... geez. LOL and my room phone JUST IN CASE!

there is literally one post that says all these great things i did that night, montgomery gentry concert, hung out with one of the hottest seniors at my highschool, and had a secret admirer cowboy at the concert who gave me a rose.... and then i end with "i had a bad night :("

ok.

im done

WASTING

your time

ill post again if i come along a more embarassing post!

wednesday

this is your life... right now... it doesn't wait for you to get back on your feet.

its over, officially.

cons:

-im a wreck

-i cant sleep

-i cant eat, but when i can, i eat junk

-above all, i miss him

pros:

-i get a fresh start

-today is a new day, and all those other optimistic bull-sh*t sayings that make u feel happy about the state of your life in the current moment

-God has picked out my soulmate, i just havent met him yet

you just made me wish that i never met you....

congratulations (if that was your plan)

tuesday part 2

livi was shockingly cavalier about my not being prepared for critique today

i guess some professors do have a heart

dear neighbors,

i apologize for leaving my apartment without pants

i havent been myself lately, even though myself is

not very fond of pants. who needs pants anyways

but, for your sake and the sake of my granny panties,

i will wear pants next time i exit the apartment.

sincerely,

j

also, did i tell you that my complex is making me put all my porch stuff

inside due to some silly powerwashing/painting. THERE IS A GRILL IN

MY LIVING ROOM! annoying....

tuesday

and today i dont feel like leaving the apartment

blah

i had to email my teacher

and let her know i wouldn't be prepared for critique tomorrow

due to a personal life crisis (i didn't use that word but maybe i should've)

like they care, personal lives mean nothing to professors

unless its them that got sick, or had car problems, or woke up late...

life's

not

fair

keep breathing

december.

i need to make it to december.

on a smaller scale, it would be nice to make it to friday. or even to the end of today.

i get to see colby tonight. perfect timing. we are going to dinner, i could use some sushi or something. i could really use a colby hug. he gives good hugs.

i need to clean my apartment, desperately.

its getting gross. laundry, dishes, just stuff everywhere in general. but i get home and i just want to be in bed. with his hoodie. and my blanket.

1 hour 30 minutes until i get to go home. having the day off of work was a blessing in disguise.