just keep swimming

when this is all over im gonna:

-sleep a lot
-get myself to the gym... oh boy yes i am...
-start eating normal food as opposed to thinking energy drinks and coffee are their own food group (yes my stomach wants me dead lately)
-pick up my guitar for more than one strum
-actually COOK a meal, something i havent done in like months. and no, mac n cheese for owen doesn't count as a meal haha
-sit in bed and stare at the wall just because i have time to kill
-oh ya, im gonna actually get to see all my friends that hate me right now for not having a life (you all know who you are and you all should know how sad i feel without you in my life!)
-i guess i should start thinking about job hunting and what i want to do with my life


ps what am i to do for new years? i generally have a bowl game to be at, but this year (and last year) is a little different... ughhh

happy turkey day

a few lyrics off the new john mayer album... hitting a little too close to home hah...

just when i had you off my head
your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
you say you wanna try again
but I've tried everything but giving in


why you wanna break my heart again
why am i gonna let you try

moses/procrastination photo shoot

i forgot that seeing my pup was gonna be a distracting homework environment! woopsie!

10 min til turkey day! NOM NOM NOM!

ps

ps i met lloyd carr... WHAT UPPP!?!

happy monday

ill stand
with arms high and heart abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all
ill stand
my soul lord to you surrendered
all i have is yours


in class this morning, wishing i was back in bed. but i only have until tomorrow at 6pm!
and i have so much to do between now and then:

• pack for the cabin
• get stuff for my mentor child visit tomorrow
• make a list and gather all the homework i need to do this weekend
• clean the apartment (ugh)
• get studio 5 stuff done and ready for meeting tomorrow
• have SOMETHING to show for portfolio class... AHHH!!

i also just found out we still have graphics studio on wednesday.

guess who will be 4 hours away from room 423?

...yes that would be me...

i mean cmon who holds classes the day BEFORE thanksgiving!? some people

have to travel ya know!!!! annoying...

ok back to making this dumb brochure about a non-existent health center. haha

-j

Ann arbor is like my emerald city... I enter the city limits and all my problems seem to disappear

i LOVEEEEE this...

when will you realize, vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you? 




mmmm love me some billy joel... now i can focus on homework :)

is it friday yet? oh wait its not even monday yet....

ok so.... for starters lets not talk about saturday. ill just get all riled up and nothing good comes of that right? the wolverines have one more chance this season to make me happy and it doesnt look great. but i am still aching to be in that stadium right now. its bittersweet. osu game is something we always look forward to, but it also is the end of the season... i have to put up with dumb basketball season (please shoot me now)
ewww and all the march madness brackets will come out and everyone will go insane and facebook will be cluttered with them... i just threw up in my mouth a little.

i also think i made stupid decisions this weekend... i am an idiot. thats all there is to it

and finally, i can't even elaborate on any of this right now because i need to go write a paper on collision: a documentary i practically slept through thanks to all the nyquil i took last week. atheism vs christianity is exactly what i feel like writing about right now... bleh

goodnight

blame it on the n-n-ny-ny-ny-NYQUIL

this may or may not be written under the influence of the crazy behind the counter nyquil
(you know the one that has psuedophedrine) it also has doxylamine succinate which it calls
an antihistamine/HYPNOTIC... HAHAHAH my nyquil has hypnotic in it.

anyways ive been in bed 99% of the week. and i never thought id say it, but im getting sick
of sitting here in my bed and staying in every night.

but TOMORROW... michigan takes on the badgers. badgers are stupid, and wolverines eat them... as a snack. NOM NOM NOM! anyways, it could be a good game. im really hoping for the best. looks like dRob is starting. hopefully thats a good thing? dont tell anyone but im secretly counting down the days til next season. we need a fresh start. and if the forcier transferring rumors are true... well, lets not go there tonight.

oh also... i hate team projects. thats about it.

buenas noches

happy two dozen brad

happy two dozenth birthday to my brother and partner in crime for the past twenty two years of mine

back to reality

procrastinator: someone who postpones work (especially out of laziness or habitual carelessness) 
yep that sounds just about right. dont get me started on how much hw i have to do between today and tomorrow. its disgusting. yet im still making it to the gym tonight?

this weekend was a bust....

pros:
got to hang with brother bear (always a good time)
introduced lauren to michigan football, or better yet, college football haha
got to see the pontiac boys
and tackled pugg at 3am which in itself makes the weekend excellent
cherry pie. oh yes.

cons:
we lost... miserably
we aren't going to a bowl game
our offense actually looked good for once but it was wasted on that game
i didnt get to see this one guy i wanted to see
(which i am starting to believe is absolutley ridiculous)
also, i was forced to watch planet earth deep dive and encounter the vampire squid from hell
(brrrr nightmares)

but whatever. the weekend is over.
please tell me this season is just growing pains? i cant take this much heartbreak in one fall...

back to class!

fail

ok fine ill be happy

i like this...

sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. you have to know that you are a good person and a good friend. what is meant to be will end up good and what is not won't. relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. at times, people need to fight for you. if they don't, you must move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give to you. hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something for real. always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

happy tuesday

truths:
-i woke up with a jar of peanut butter and spoon on my bedside table this morning haha
-i am breaking the rules and listening to a christmas song right now
-i am going to school in my pjs today

lies:
-i am totally prepared for my studio 5 meeting
-i am totally prepared for portfolio class
-i did not text him last night

boo monday :(

sometimes tears say all there is to say
sometime your first scars wont ever fade away
tried to break my heart
well it's broke
tried to hang me high
well i'm choked
wanted rain on me
well i'm soaked
soaked to the skin

...it's the end where I begin