so im happy now....

this time maybe ill be bulletproof

its been a while. i guess i havent had anything to say

scratch that.

i guess i have had too much to say.

im twenty three now. i feel like im counting down the days 

until i get to do something with my life. its just crazy... life 

doesn't wait for you to catch your breath or get back on your

feet. it keeps going. project after project. wedding invitations

here, something for work there, a restaurant design project...

i think sometimes i am scared that i will get too wrapped up in

little projects and i will never get my portfolio done and never

get a job, or rather, a learning experience. 

im ready to get out of here. 

i got this book for my birthday... its by the editors of Women's

Health. ready to laugh? its called "Look Better Naked" muahahah

im doing this two day cleanse diet. its killing me. im on day two.

its not that big of a deal, i mean its not like an entire liquid diet or

something ridiculous. but i want a loaf of bread. or like a dozen bagels

REALLY bad. bread is my downfall for sure...

excuse me while i go eat a cucumber ugh

i think i will pick up my guitar today. or sit at the piano. i miss it. 

i miss singing. so much. and i miss moses. and i miss my brothers. 

and my quirky parents. my silly silly family. sighhhh.

i should probably pick up my bible sometime soon, spend some time

with the big guy in the sky. ive been lacking in that department lately.

maybe things will make a little more sense when i do that...

xoxo

j

direction.

i think i have finally figured things out... or at least step one of things.

at the end of july i will be ending the grand rapids chapter of my life

kinda bittersweet

ive lived in this incredible city for the past five years. i feel like ive 

learned so much here, mostly about myself.

ive loved, laughed, and cried. i have met some of the most amazing

people ever. and ive found my purpose in life, or at least an arrow in that direction

im moving up to our cabin in cheboygan for a few months. i really

need to focus on my portfolio 100% so that I can make my next big

decision involving career and where im going to end up.

i need to get out of the city and away from boys, and bars, and all

the things distracting me right now. up north is a very inspiring 

atmosphere, i need that in my life right now.

it is quite a hike. its four hours from grand rapids. but i would love

visitors up there! and i know i will be back in gr from time to time.

but anyway.... not ready to say bye quite yet....

xo

j