like dis ---> :)

i like a boy.... i like a boy.... i like a boy HEY HEY HEY HEY!

(make sure you sing that)

oh and i had an interview today, i find out about it tomorrow. an interview... a boy.... sometimes the tables turn for the better and all you can do is thank the big guy in the sky.

:)

exhausted

someone said to me today "you are a cat. all you do is sleep."

it made me laugh until i realized it was quite accurate. im tired all the time. not from being sick, or lack of sleep, or anything like that. i think im so exhausted from doing nothing. i know it doesn't make sense.

i left a grand rapids week of leaving the apartment at 7am and not getting home til 10pm or later. always on the go, always a new project or challenge or struggle. and here i am sleeping in til noon. applying for job after job. working on crappy freelance projects. staring at the same four walls until 4am. and repeat.

im exhausted of the lackadaisical process thats getting me nowhere.

and to top it off, if my stupid self messes things up the one good thing that has finally come my way... lets just say it won't be pretty.

-j

this is how it works

apply
apply
apply
apply
apply
rejection
apply
apply
apply
apply
call- talk to someone stupid that doesn't know HR's extension
call- leave voicemail
call- leave voicemail
call- leave voicemail
apply
apply
apply
rejection
rejection
kind rejection- "you seem really great, but we are choosing someone else"
apply
apply
accidentally send wrong company wrong cover letter... oops

wait...wait...wait... (all the while, repeating all the above)

no responses.... crash... exhaustion



the score is:
job recruiters: 2000
jessica: 0

i rarely listen to kanye... but

lets have a toast for the douchebags

blah blah blah

busy

busy busy busy! so excited. i have client meetings this week and projects im sending to production. sometimes feeling like a grown up isn't all that bad

dont worry, i still sleep in til 10/11 every morning :)

ugh

its really about time i started seeing a shrink... seriously im an idiot

SO EXCITED FOR GRAND RAPIDS!!!!!!!

on the other hand...

normally i would be really ticked off at people getting engaged.
QUIT GETTING ENGAGED AND MARRIED AND HAVING BABIES!
its depressing.

but on the other hand... keep doing it. because its keeping me busy.
so thanks.

happy monday folks

xoxo
j

stuff

i was going to write a post bitching and complaining about how ridiculous and immature some people that have the nerve to call themselves "friends" of mine can possibly be.

but he is not even worth my time or energy anymore. ive given up on him.

lesson learned: you can't be friends with boys. not best friends, not normal friends. its impossible.

so moving on...
my wolverines lost, just breaking my heart. trying not to let the three years shenanigans bother me(we haven't lost three years in a row since like 1965) just ready to regroup, move on, and focus on iowa. if we really tighten up the defense i think we could be great. denard wasn't on top of his game saturday but we need to remember its not a one man team. the receivers looked awful too. but like i said... moving on

meeting with a bride today. super stoked. its actually a friend from highschool i haven't seen in like five years. so this should be fun. she is getting married next summer at the planterra conservatory. how cool is that. ugh.

in other news my grandma basically called me out on being old and not having a ring on my finger. thanks grandma, but its not the old times anymore where girls were married at fifteen, mmk?

alright mo-dog is staring at me with sad eyes. he wants to play. gotta go

xoxo
j

yes im aware its 2 am

just a little shout out to all my incredible friends for all your love and support. starting a business is not easy it turns out. its stressful and time consuming and money consuming and it cries like a little baby all night long...

ok well, not really... but you get the point

so to all of you who have commented on photos, visited the website, referred me to your friends... i appreciate you all more than you even know. lots and lots of love goin out to ya :)

in other news:
the um msu game is this saturday. im pretty stoked about it because A) gonna kick some spartan behind in the big house. and B) i get to see this one person i haven't seen in quite a long time. and C) i get to challenge someone and anyone to a game of bags. hopefully a spartan. so i can destroy them and feel really wonderful about it.
HAH!

so now i must go to sleep because tomorrow my grandma is coming over to go over her resume that she had me look at. let me tell you... it needs some work. because under computer skills she listed "paintbrush" and i about peed myself laughing... i also just did my moms resume and cover letter. so anyone need a resume... you know where to find me haha.

ok.
for real
this time
GOOD
NIGHT!

hits

ooo 5000 hits.
i thought this was cool until i saw "the social network" and
how mark zuckerberg got 22,000 hits in like... a few hours

(show off)

although im sure rating hot girls on facemash.com is much
more exhilarating than reading this blog that i update once
in a blue moon.

and now i want blue moon ice cream. mmk bye

-j

just need to vent about one little thing...

oh and one more thing

some people out there are absolutely and ridiculously pathetic

"oooo im so bored with my life so im gonna string you along for a few days to make myself happy... but ohhhh now im back to normal life so forget you..."

seriously. get a life. and make up your idiotic mind. twat waffle.

i neverrrrr liked you anywayyy......

[yes im grumpy tonight]

-j

:/

i miss grand rapids
i miss my friends
i would give all my limbs to have a night out with friends

sighhh.....

ps its football season. at least that keeps me going.

one day

for as much as i am not believing in love or anything of the sort right now, i came across the blog entry of an excellent photographer i know.... a tribute to his wife on their three year anniversary. i know twitter has a RT or "retweet" but does blogger have a RB or "reblog"? because here is what he said:

I love her more now than I did on our wedding day. Three years ago I wouldn’t have believed that was possible.

A groomsman at the wedding this past weekend cracked a series of brilliant jokes during his speech. At one point he congratulated the groom for marrying out of his league. As funny as it was, I actually remember feeling that way on my wedding day.

It is impossible for me to express how important she is to me.

I am her biggest fan.

And yes, I cried like a baby when she walked down the aisle.

if that entry doesn't make your heart melt a little bit, then its possible you don't have one. the main question is... when do i get to have that? and now with my stoney coldness am i even going to let that happen?

one day.... one day...

im still alive

sorry i havent been posting
ive been on a rollercoaster

i moved home
i started a business
i have no life
i feel like things are falling apart
things i have zero control over
im too emotionally exhausted to even think anymore

i would elaborate but its not even my business to share

later...

coming soon

www.peace-love-design.com

coming soon to a computer near you 

(oh yes i have been quite busy)

ill elaborate on life tomorrow.... but this is funny

so im happy now....

this time maybe ill be bulletproof

its been a while. i guess i havent had anything to say

scratch that.

i guess i have had too much to say.

im twenty three now. i feel like im counting down the days 

until i get to do something with my life. its just crazy... life 

doesn't wait for you to catch your breath or get back on your

feet. it keeps going. project after project. wedding invitations

here, something for work there, a restaurant design project...

i think sometimes i am scared that i will get too wrapped up in

little projects and i will never get my portfolio done and never

get a job, or rather, a learning experience. 

im ready to get out of here. 

i got this book for my birthday... its by the editors of Women's

Health. ready to laugh? its called "Look Better Naked" muahahah

im doing this two day cleanse diet. its killing me. im on day two.

its not that big of a deal, i mean its not like an entire liquid diet or

something ridiculous. but i want a loaf of bread. or like a dozen bagels

REALLY bad. bread is my downfall for sure...

excuse me while i go eat a cucumber ugh

i think i will pick up my guitar today. or sit at the piano. i miss it. 

i miss singing. so much. and i miss moses. and i miss my brothers. 

and my quirky parents. my silly silly family. sighhhh.

i should probably pick up my bible sometime soon, spend some time

with the big guy in the sky. ive been lacking in that department lately.

maybe things will make a little more sense when i do that...

xoxo

j

direction.

i think i have finally figured things out... or at least step one of things.

at the end of july i will be ending the grand rapids chapter of my life

kinda bittersweet

ive lived in this incredible city for the past five years. i feel like ive 

learned so much here, mostly about myself.

ive loved, laughed, and cried. i have met some of the most amazing

people ever. and ive found my purpose in life, or at least an arrow in that direction

im moving up to our cabin in cheboygan for a few months. i really

need to focus on my portfolio 100% so that I can make my next big

decision involving career and where im going to end up.

i need to get out of the city and away from boys, and bars, and all

the things distracting me right now. up north is a very inspiring 

atmosphere, i need that in my life right now.

it is quite a hike. its four hours from grand rapids. but i would love

visitors up there! and i know i will be back in gr from time to time.

but anyway.... not ready to say bye quite yet....

xo

j

dreary saturday morning

i opened up my book called "design" by tom peters to a page that said

who are you?
why are you here?
how are you unique?
how can you make a DRAMATIC difference?
who cares? (do you?)

got me to thinking about things.
and then, after a long ranting and raving (about how every minute of
every day is always booked and i feel like summer is slipping between
my fingers already, and it hasnt even started) to this one guy i know...

he says
nows the time where you REALLY figure out who you are. who you're
going to be... you have every right to be a little self-absorbed because i
think its needed. if people arent understanding of that, thats their problem.


sighhhhhh.... relief. good to know someone out there gets me.

sighhhhh

california dreamin.... definitely not just a song
i got a present in the mail yesterday from sanfran
and i haven't stopped smiling since

dear gensler. or anyone out there for that matter:
PLEASE HIRE ME! kthnxbye

welcome to growing up

may 8 2010
graduate college


may 9 2010
sleep all day... for like.... a week please?!


may 10 2010 - ?
try to figure out what to do with the rest of my life


"this is my one and only life, And its a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive. I don't have a plan..."


except to be extraordinary and brilliant and not make excuses or apologies for who i am and what i bring to the table. to go the extra mile. and not stop when im tired. not even stop when im done. 


i really think if i push myself, i can accomplish just about anything i want to accomplish.


so for now. im going to plug away at my portfolio. and i need your help. i know i might want to sleep all day or go to the beach every day or just sit around and do absolutely nothing. but if you ever see me doing any of those things.... kick me in the shins. tell me i have better things to do. and make me get to it!


thank you all for ALL the love and support, the cards, the words of encouragement during those crazy multiple all nighters in a row, million cans of mt dew amp scattered around my apartment. mostly... thank you for believing in me more than i could at sometimes :) i love all ya'll!

senior show piece 

lots of love

j

look what you have missed!

so senior show...

basically took up my life all last week, then all weekend
monday rolls around, 3ish in the afternoon, and here we are about 24 hours away from the opening reception. email from professor titled "warning shot" and in a nutshell telling krystle and i that we weren't supposed to go above and beyond. too creative. too big. too awesome. if you don't trim it down to 40 by 64, roughly a foot in each direction, give or take, then she will do it for you by noon on tuesday...

the stages of mondays rant:
1. panic... no air getting to lungs... zomg im gonna pass out
2. cry... like a baby. a tired-i-havent-slept-or-eaten-in-a-longggggg-time
3. violence... grab exacto knife, start pacing up and down the halls, looking for revenge
4. calm, collected, reason. call head of the program.

end of story... we still had to trim our displays down. uncool interior design department. its ironic that the senior show would encompass everything that is wrong with that program. a bunch of power tripping professors wanting things their way. a bunch of bitchy girls complaining that "well i didnt know we could do that" ok youre right, i should be punished for thinking creatively since you for some odd reason were unable to. welcome to the real world kiddies. your useless 11 by 17 pieces of paper with everything in the right place have been seen OVER and OVER and OVER by employers and im gonna let you in on a little secret.... THEY ARE SICK OF IT!

[switching gears]

you should all check out the interior design senior show. 5th floor of KCAD (17 fountain street NW), room 527. and check out the other floors too. lots of great art. congrats to fellow seniors. i look forward to walking with all yall on saturday.

mmk im sleepy.
goodnight

xoxo
j

look, i made sumpin purdy

an old sketch made purdy with illustrator wooo!

just a little preview to my senior show piece :)

yep

yep

you are right i am allowed 

to be mean to you

but like i said before, its not like i didn't see it coming

thanks

dear God

thank you for the thunderstorms
they are perfect
and they are just what i need tonight

xoxo
j

rawr

if i have to cut out, paint, then spray paint, then spray mount then cut out ANOTHER arrow...

i dont know what will happen

but something will happen

stoopid senior show

(oh this shirt feels weird because its on backwards. cool)

i see you

i downloaded avatar
and now i cant sleep
because i want to be blue
and live in a tree

crap crap crap

in other news
tomorrow is the last day of classes!

so goodnight!

its sunday

so rob was really good this morning
even his opening prayer hit pretty close to home
ive been angry
and ive been bitter
and im carrying around this baggage
and asking "what was the point of all that wasted time and energy!?"

when what i really need to do is pour out the cup.

anyways.
i want this outfit for graduation.
problem is: its super expensive. and even if i could afford it, its sold out.

so i know the skirt will be easy to find. and if i can just find a similar shirt. grrrrr!

but i want THAT one! and ill wear it with my brown pumps. YAY! 

IM GRADUATING!

(if i can finish this homework...)

xo

j

oh bye gs3

final products (i think)

heavy metal jesus.

and the back tattoo

yeehaw. its saturday and i need to be at work in less than an hour. 

so buhbye

j

ps.

boys also ruin songs that were otherwise excellent.

just irritated right now.
trying to do homework.
these headphones arent loud enough
to drown out life.


wah. wah. wah. this is the worlds smallest tamborine.
and its...
playing a song
or something

i.D. magazine spread

my type 1 final... a spread from I.D. magazine on Adrian Frutiger
oh and if anyone is looking to get me a birthday present, ill take a subscription
to i.D. magazine... LOVE it

1st spread. i love this one, the page break is like an inch and a half into the image. and i absolutely love that i found this image its PERFECT... fades right back into white. pretty pretty

i used courier new, i know that isnt the typeface they use, but it was the closest i could find

2nd spread. still needs some beef to the text as you can see the empty space on the right page of the spread. i love how clean I.D. is, and that the images go right to the page break. and of course you are all aware of my overuse of the ellipsis (...) and they use it at the top right of every page

im also thinking about doing a mock up for the cover

here are some examples of their covers. i LOVE the one on the right. i want that as a poster on my wall. seriously. its so hawt.

ok BYE

boo boys

that break up with you

that dont talk to you anymore

that get back together with their exes

that live really freaking far away

that basically suck in general

which

(lets face it)

is all of them

xoxoxoxo

j

the word of the century. especially today

RAWR!

(or janky... thats a popular one in my vocabulary right now)

or...

updated heavy metal jesus? hmmmm. brad hates this one

it isnt heavy metal enough for him. but ummmm bite me bambi

the back tattoo one that i HATE. i cannot tattoo people in photoshop to save my LIFE

this is without the type. because i cant figure it out

and this is with the type. meh. just kinda.... MEH

oops

so

i told the story of the cd cover

twice

(on my blog)

in one day

.... IM LOSING MY MIND?

yes i am

cd cover preview

heres the scoop

we were told to pick out songs for GS3, clearly we were going to make cd covers right?
i chose iron and wine's "naked as we came"
its an amazing song, for those of you who have not heard it... download it, listen to it, love it.

well class rolls around and jason's sneaky self announced that we need to play ring around the
rosie with our music, passing it the the person on our right. tim is lucky because he got my
iron and wine goodness, while i got sterling's concoction of HEAVY METAL ugh

no offense to anyone out there that is a heavy metal fan. i like a few metallica songs... kinda?
but this was definitely a challenge. and in my search i came across
what would heavy metal jesus do?

and i couldnt stop laughing. so i ran with it of course....

if you are in my class, you better not be looking at this! you get to see it tomorrow at

in progress review you cheaters!!!!

i might not use this one... there are a few other options. but so far, its hard to pass up heavy

metal jesus. dont act like you arent impressed with him.

yep,

j

ummm

im in a strange mood today
i cannot get motivated
i just want to sit and stare out at the sunshine
from my comfy bed

i dont feel like answering my phone
i dont feel like doing homework
i have practically a week left of this semester
and not enough time to do everything

i feel like crying for some reason
overwhelmed maybe
and my left eye won't stop twitching
i need a hug and to hear the words "everything is gonna be alright hun"

which is strange
because i hate when people call me hun
generally younger people
but i know who i want to hear it from

[subject change]

so we were instructed to bring in a song or collection of songs
to design a cd cover for
he surprised us, not surprising at all
and we passed them to the right

i no longer had "naked as we came" by iron and wine
but instead a mix of heavy metal head banging music
metallica, tool, things i know nothing about
what doesn't kill you will make you a stronger designer right?

[ok back to procrastinating]

j

im lookin through you
where did you go?

i thought i knew you
what did i know?

omg.... my digital camera was in that purse.

i
hate
life
right
NOW

really?

dear person carrying around my favorite mustard colored purse with the giant zipper pull
(and listening to all the excellent music on my ipod)

i hope you enjoy my favorite lipsticks (sheer mandarin looks GREAT with a tan), lip glosses, and eyeliner... ugh really?
make sure to write something AWESOME with my favorite pen
those notes i took in the staff meeting today, if you could just drop them off at the salon... it would be wonderful, unless you need to know about our return policy, staff duties, and pure privilege.
dont forget to buy yourself somethin pretty with all that change in my purse, because lets face it, you arent getting very far with a handful of cancelled credit cards! except that gas purchase you made on hall street at 8:27... dont think im not stalking you!
my very detailed and full planner should give you plenty things to do not that your low-life self would be classy enough to attend anything in there. so on second thought, please return it.

on third thought.... return it all YOU ARE RUINING MY LIFE YOU PIECE OF...!

thank you for leaving my favorite GUESS heels in the backseat, and for not bashing in any windows.

xoxo

good news

im writing a book

im perfectly lonely
cuz i dont belong to anyone
nobody belongs to me

john mayer

but i did distract myself with something...

book covers for GS3

the idea is to choose your favorite book as a child, favorite book as an adult

and redo the covers... as it applies to your life

my favorite book as a child was ferdinand, a story about a bull that just didnt fit in. 

original

new and improved. i still dont know how i feel about the title. too much contrast.

oh and ignore the crop marks. i exported it all goofy from indesign

and favorite adult book... me talk pretty one day. reflects the world as i see it, hidden in sarcasm i guess

original

my version. i really love this one. typeface is growing on me....
once again, ignore the white border, ignore the crops haha

thoughts?

please go away

heartbreak warfare is on EVERY station i turn to
black grand ams are INVADING my life
and everyone keeps saying "have you seen the show HIMYM,
you have GOT to watch it!!!!" no... thank you....


im
so
ANGRY
at myself

(for missing you)

happy eeeeestur

i learned how to play wild at heart on the guitar
cant stop playing it
its all i play

so story of my life:
i think i have everything figured out.
work at the salon, nanny, month-to-month rent til end of july
move home, save money, finish portfolio, interview for job

(now i might be staying in grand rapids longer)

an internship opportunity just jumped in. starting late july
basically exactly when i would be ready for it
God has quite the sense of humor. he waits til you are all like
"oh look at me, i can make plans and figure things out
all by myself, i dont need a silly creator of all things to the ends
of the earth to tell me whats up, or lend me a hand"

(oh really, is that so?)

so good news:
-sometimes God answers prayers within 24 hours
-possibly an excellent learning experience
-doors opening to other jobs
-staying around all my GRap people
-the owners son at this internship is sexy... (yes i said it)

and bad news:
-you GRap people are stuck with me for longer
-this internship is systems furniture based (fml)
-i dont get to live for free at my parents house
-i dont want to live in my apartment anymore ( i could move?)
-i miss my family
-i am afraid of growing up and being a big girl bahhhh!

anyways. that. is. life. (right now)

luh.pce.&.chicken.grease.

j

spring...is that you?

heartbreak's got nothin on me on a day like today
sun on my skin
windows down
wind in my hair

happy :)

i wanna be on gogoskooter!!!!

my submission for ai's gogoskooter contest

and basically what i did today instead of homework WOOPS!

tee hehe

happy birthday gaga

some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. if you are wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore

lady gaga

8 days until dumb basketball is over... 160 days until the big house ♥

just like that...

"watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. but rather makes me realize that if i wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along"


yes you were all right. yes i was wrong (again). 
so give yourselves a pat on the back for being right
and keep your
"i-told-you-so's"
to yourselves

as for you...

i feel sorry for your futile little attempts to break my
incredibly strong and wonderful heart
get a life... please.... for all of us

-j-

dude what did i eat last night?

ok .... wicked crazy dreams last night

1. i was driving a car in florida, but you drive it with like a big stick as if you are steering a hang glider. its much more difficult than it sounds. and then i passed a car of gangsters singing a rap song by celine dion (WHAT!?) and the interior of thier car was made of mexican tile roofing... UH-mazing

2. one of the stylists at work was asking me how i did my updo the other day. and i told her. and she started freaking out and was like IT LOOKS LIKE CRAP I CANT DO IT! and i turned around to look at her and her hair was sopping wet.

3. my final dream last night was my mom and i going over finances. and she was trying to convince me that green energy things were good at first because they are very low in cost but then eventually they jump right back up above the cost of regular energy. and then i woke up thinking that. stupid dream!

wicker....

bad news: wicker furniture is undustable basically

worse news: i have two wicker nightstands, a wicker dresser, and a wicker trunk

worst news: im allergic to dust

top o' the mornin to ya

st patricks day...

the only day im afraid of drunk drivers
on my morning commute

love, love, love

happy anniversary to my amazing parents

27 years

yep, they are pretty cute.

im in flo-to-the-RIDA!

heck yes i am

but the beach was chilly today...

mom and i are on a much needed vacation in

tampa hanging out with grandpa and gg

thier their new house is BALLER and my 

plans to jump back on a healthy eating spree

are down the drain as gg has provided bagels

and cream cheese, donuts, really delicious bread

food, food, and more food

(speaking of which there is pound cake calling my name)

anyways. its been a while since i have updated

you on my life i guess.

things to look forward to in the near future:

the rest of the florida trip

(busch gardens, boat tour, etc etc)

graduation!

summer

job hunting (right?)

friends weddings this summer

one prize competition possibly?

neocon possibly?

summer internship possibly?

things i am dreading in the near future:

leaving florida

finishing my portfolio

leaving my nannying job

leaving my salon job

job hunting

growing up

OKEE thats enough for now i need to

return to my floridian retreat :)

au revoir, 

j

scary things

finances

health and well being of loved ones

finding purpose

uncertainty
growing up

settling 

being loved/not being loved

what-ifs

unhappiness

disaster
growing up more

everything

everyone

and losing my keys (which i do at least twice a day)

conspiracy

so i went to buy blonde bobby pins today
because well, im blonde now...

and get this load of crap
$3 for blonde bobby pins, $0.97 for brunette bobby pins
WHATTTTT!?

mass text to a few friends and family with this general response:
"HAHAHAH its because blondes are dumb and dont know any better!"

NICE

quotations are so cute.

"
"
"
"
"
"


right?

saw this on someones facebook....

"there are 10 trillion cells that work daily to keep me alive. i'm trying to make it worth their while"




love it.

oh by the way

im blonde now

duh

(SCENE: lake michigan dr, pulling up to a stoplight next to a truck pulling a speedboat, just after previously passing another luxury speedboat)

me: WHAT THE HELL!? these people must be crazy taking thier expensive boats out in the dead of winter. i mean there is ice and snow and who in thier right mind would go out in this!? Whatever, its going to ruin thier nice boats, shame on them.

common sense: Grand Rapids Boat Show Feb 17-21

ohhhhhhhhh... LIGHTBULB!

its only monday?

i really need to pull myself together and start eating normal again!

ok
scratch that

my definition of normal is not your definition of normal
but you catch my drift right?

little monster

so i could sit here and complain

about how crappy it is that i have 

to wake up at 430am for the third 

time this week

but how can you resist that little monster's face?

love love love him

good morning!

its my second 4:30 morning this week. and tomorrow will be my third and final.

im
so
tired

but its been fun spending so much time with owen and kai this week. it feels like summer time, except with snow, lots of snow, and that kai is in school all day.

oh and we didnt have a snow day yesterday. i literally sat in bed until
like 8am, when i realized that i should probably shower. then i was fully
dressed and ready to go (minus the no homework thing) and at 8:45 i
stripped back down and hopped into bed until my second class

this cold is kicking my butt

give me a snow day and some nyquil

so sitting here waiting for my school to show up on the closings list
theres no way we wouldnt close. i mean even east grand rapids is closed
and they NEVER close
(but neither do we)

i didnt finish my typography homework. it was a very conceptual
piece... duh im in art school. but seriously. how can your brain work
on this much cold medicine? i feel like i have the neck of a linebacker
its THAT swollen. BLAH

oh.
i thought i should share.

amidst the closings, i saw that the Lowell Breast-Feeding Club is cancelled
for today. sorry to anyone that was looking forward to attending.

WTF!?!? THEY HAVE BREAST FEEDING CLUBS!?

our country is more screwed up than i thought.

i need sleep...

i finished gaga.... i dont love it... it needs some work

to mary jo

rest in peace mary jo banyai

12/13/1957-2/1/2010

mom and mary jo up north at our cabin

ill never forget her beautiful smile

her contagious laugh

her kind spirit 

her words of wisdom

and most of all, her strong faith that was 

a constant reminder of how

amazing God's love is

Mary Jo,

You will be missed

Love you always and forever

and I can't wait to see you up there someday

-j

Jesus answered saying "You may not realize what I am doing, but later you will understand"

-John 13:7-

lost

sitting here very lost between

"everything happens for a reason"
and
"god would never give us more than we can handle"

and really wanting to scream and cry and just ask
"WHY"

praying for a miracle that i know he is capable of...

also.... on a more serious note


a very close friend of our family, 
(someone who at times has been like a second mother to me...)
is currently in the hospital 


please please keep her in your prayers
God hears us more than we even know


Be strong and of good courage, do not be afraid, for the Lord your God, He is the One, who goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deut 31:6)

i wish i had a polaroid so i could remember

is it bad that i like schwayze?
polaroid is my favorite

the lyrics are just SO terrible. but it makes me want to dance...

seriously....

i have the 

best

friends

EVER

thank you to everyone who called, prayed, visited, facebooked, held my hand in pre-op, brought me flowers, cards, teddy bears, skittles, jimmy johns, more flowers, and more and more flowers.

you all rock and i love you to the ends of the earth

thank you so much

<3

i was productive today...

step one: purchase open back frame ($10) and plastic mesh canvas ($0.49)

step two: hot glue the mesh to the back of the frame

step three: add your fabulous earrings... VOILA... masterpiece

rah rah rahahah... gaga oo lala

so i finally get the chance to do one of those font illustrations AHHH!

so excited. and of course i chose.... lady gaga :)

its a work in progress. i chose futura. its a geometric sans-serif type. she is edgy and to the point, kinda the bauhaus characteristics of the type. im really enjoying it... just started so dont judge just yet! im going in and doing most of the light shading first... using all g's and a's haha. just switching up the opacities. I have started her hair as well, the strands are lyrics from poker face haha

who needs a pendix anyways

ouch

im in some pain

and i want to eat an entire bottle of vicodin

but mom says no

come visit

appendicitis

dear dilaudin and vicodin

you rock

is 24 hours of non stop sleep too much to ask for?!

before

after

not sure how i feel about the font just yet.... this is a very very rough draft. blahhhh

its due wednesday. and i have to post it tomorrow. i dunno i dunno i dunno

i want to know. i dont want to not know. ya know?

hah goodnight

oh ps i still have 6 font compositions to pull out of my ass and print and trace. FML!

notes

dear moses,
dont eat that tape please

dear sharpie,
stop smudging/ruining my life

dear typography,
im sorry that sharpies are ruining you

dear kiwi fruit,
you are so purdy inside


love love love
j

back to school

ok where did we leave off? i got into my class meaning ill be adding graphic design to my life

im in a typography class that i am secretly stoked about due to my absolute love for fonts. its basically like a font history class. and guess what!? i get to find two images a week of random signs/fonts in public and analyze it and critique it and then identify the font! i am SUCH a nerd.... anyways we are studying the classifications of type and this is part1 of our project. here are a few of my compositions:

my other class is studio 3 and i love it and i love my professor and i really feel like this class will be a great challenge for me! our first big project is due wednesday.... images to come soon!

I just got my butt kicked in wii mario kart by a 3 year old.... and now we are eating pb&J and watching tom and jerry life is rough!

popcorn for dinner

preface: i saw the movie district 9

so i meet this guy brian at founders right?
we make small talk yadda yadda.... he asks for my number
he randomly mentions he needs to stop on the way home for CAT FOOD

i proceed to ask if hes an alien...

(thats the end of my story)

also i really need to stop trying to unlock my apartment door with my car clicker thing...

noddin my head like ya

the suspense of the next year of my life is KILLING me... what happens!?
i will admit that i was that girl that would be so impatient that i would read the last chapter in a book before i even got close to the end...

i bought a headband with a bow on it. and now i want to wear it everyday of my life. i think something about it makes me feel like im five years old again. when things were much more simple. a time where my biggest challenge was learning the alphabet. where love was just a four letter word. where boys still had cooties.

i love that bow.

happy twenty ten

new years resolutions:

be vegan again
make it to the gym at least twice a week
be happy
be really really happy